A new begining.

Well, its almost a week since my band concert:


I've gotta reorganise my life a little. Do my homework, practise piano, study, sleep...... Stuff that i had left out by alot ever since i threw myself into the concert mood. I need to make major changes, to my character. I've gotta stop being such a pushover and get firm. I realised the importance of your own principles. Its vital to gain respect. And without respect, nothing can be achieved. I feel really stupid realising this just now but at least i did. I know something has to be done. But how?


Teamwork.

When you are in a team, your own abilities will not matter as much anymore. What matters is teamwork. It is really stupid and useless to have just one person doing the stuff of everyones. And people take you for granted and thus lousy attitude. Does it really require a tight hard slap in the face to wake up to face the reality? Can't the reason behind that sense of urgency be seen? I really don't know. Im stilll trying my best to fix up stuff, but my efforts are limited, since i require teamwork. I need a method to wake people up without killing myself. Ouch. Good luck to me.


-Rex, worried and thinking.

Wake up call, i guess?

Ah 6 days to La Danse Finale Band Concert. The progression makes makes me anxious.


Today (Technically yest since now is 12.42am), band prac in the afternoon, 145pm to 630pm. Mr chua came to take enka, brazil and i could have danced all night. Its pretty screwed, considering that a single mistake pointed out can take about 10 times to be fixed and then soon, it occurs again.

But then, its the attitude that is disturbing. Its irritating to see how people can see the situation so clearly and yet refuse to do anything about it. After band prac, an allumni, yun leng came to talk to us. She asked,"What will you or the band gain from this concert?" Many gave cliche answers like 'gain exposure to public performance', 'gain confidence', 'improvement on playing' and etc. Then she asked me. I said," I hope that we will gain a tight slap from the concert if we continue with this kind of attitude. I rather we just fail badly for this concert instead of doing well just cuz of luck. But from the failure, i hope the band will get 'slapped' and wake up, to realise their misdoings, their attitude of failure, and change for the better for nbc and syf 11'.

Then yun leng talked to us and told us that we need to put in more effort and balance band and studies well. I added on by asking the band,"Do you think band pracs are very dull and boring?" Obviously it was. But it's not because the concert is coming near. It's not because of the top five.
It's not because of the long and stupid pracs everyday. It's because people who put in effort to play also have to drag the 'corpses' together with them, since we are 1 band. This stupid draging is a horrible chore, which spoils the fun of band and destroys passion. Thus, even the passionate ones become sick and tired and the whole band is practically dead, with lousy playing and attitude. THATS why we suck so much and pracs are so unbearably boring.
Therefore, if u people hope to change band for the better and have fun, please put in more effort. You have to. I'm not forcing u to be passionate, but at least, for urself, ur friends in band, and even anyone that is worth it, do it well.

PLEASE DONT DESTROY THE PASSION FOR MUSIC!


Its 6 days to La Danse Finale. Wake up dude.


-Rex, with a spurring of thoughts.

Reorganising + Rant.

Hello. Quite long since I last posted?

AHBAND Chalet 2009 rocks! :D


Gotta reorg, cause things are getting really messed up and i don't know where to begin fixing.

1.Timeline

I'm in the 2nd week of Dec, 1 week to Chrismas fiesta, 2 weeks to Chrismas, 3 weeks to school reopening and 5 weeks to La Dance Finale.

2. Progress of hwk

Only hair book read, OTHERS EMPTY WTF. SS proj?

3. Progress of La Dance Finale

Most songs are more or less okay, except for brazil, march, spirited. Many allumnis not sure playing for allumni band or not.

4. Progress of christmas fiesta

Not really sure, really worried sec1s cannnot make it in time. D:


Okay, so practically.....
IM SCREWED. DAMN.


Sectionals has really bad attendance. I'm damn damn dissapointed. DX

I think, regardless of reasons, its not good to miss pracs. Im not saying that u must come for band even though you are sick or when you have urgent matters. But the fact that you KNOW CLEARLY, that band is so freaking busy, then u better be prepared, arrange your schedule well. Really. Even though you have valid reasons, but reasons are merely good excuses. You see, if you don't come, everyone cannot progress, then everyone's time is wasted. Then its like, you screw your own schedule, thn u screw everyone elses schedule.

Everyone has their own problems. Don't expect people to understand you, even though there may be times they should. I've seen people skipping other events just to attend band or sects. THIS IS NOT HARDCORE. Its merely being responsible, cause you know you are impt and you do not want to drag the others down. At least do the minimum, such that you do not bring inconvinience to others. Don't leave things half done and just don't come a few pracs, expecting people to fix up ur mess.

When you really can't make it, still try to make it. The band, each section, and esp perc cannot function properly when there are missing players. At least the other sections are like eg. flute 1, flute2. Then a few people play 1, a few 2. But in perc, every single part is unique and cannot be doubled up. So a missing player will mean a missing part. That may be okay sometimes, but this cannot do for long. If you still regard yourself as part of the band, as part of perc then you, PLEASE, come for every prac. I don't know how, JUST DO IT.

Phew, sorry for the rant, i mean it but not in the offensive way. No apologies please. I want actions. Thanks.


-Rex, flaring sl :/

Getting hectic.

Hello :D

Pretty busy the past few days.

Sat

Went vivo to watch 2012! Haha, quite nice la. Though the scenes abit shocking.(I refuse to say scary) The effects are great, except for the ridiculous car part. Oh sorry, i should'nt spoil. Go watch it yourself. But i still prefer happier movies. Who cares if the world ends at 2012? Nothings gonna change. Move on and continue working hard. Optimist eh. :D Then ate carls jr at 11 plus? Everything all closed la. It sucks. Leftover food? ):


Sun
2hrs of piano, thn piano lesson. My C piece is pretty much done, A piece im getting the hang of it, B piece im still trying out. Hope can take exam soon. Dun wanna interfere with my O's. My 6Points!(I hope?) Gotta read more books.

Mon

Went back to selfprac at 8AM. Gotta justify my pm. Ron was late. Ron:"I follow my sis phone time. It lags by 30mins." HAHA! LOL. Ronald! Hope u get back ur phone eh. Didnt prac much. Crapped with ron and gwen. Lol. But at least memorised the whole bumble score yeah. Didnt have the 'feel' to play the drumset. Sian-ed la. Sucks. Gotta maintain the composure. And i just realised how loud i play, after i use earplugs. HAHA. SORRY PEOPLE. But can help it la. Go buy ear plugs! Went to eat 18 chefs with ron gwen. Ronald late for work?

Ah, havent started on hols hwk. Only finish hair la. Nice. Ah crap, no time. At most dun do lor. :D Haha. Gotta prac more. Must reach the 'comes to me naturally' stage. Go!

Boxheads?



It seems that many people see things in a fixed mind set. When it is 1+1, then will be always =2. Its technically right, but life ain't that technical i guess? Life ain't fair. There are always unforeseen circumstances. There are always miracles, or rather, disasters. Its easier for stuff to get dirty, but hard to get clean. Easy to mess, hard to arrange. Not being pessimistic, but life is like that. However, it is, responsibility, passion, perseverence.... Okay u get what i mean. That keeps us going. That is why, work do not always pay off the way you want it to be. But then whats the point of setting goals? Since you may be pushed around by unpredictable factors, and working hard may just end up with crappy results. Isnt it? Cause life isnt fair, so bear with it. Well, its circular reasoning, but at least this kinda 'im gonna hold on no matter what' attitude will bring you though you life pretty effectively?

Life sucks. Bear with it, and it rocks.


-Rex, amateur philosopher?

Happy belated Hari Raya Haji!

Hello. Happy belated hari raya haji. :D


Felt super sian yesterday. Used the whole day out. Reached home at 11.11pm. Went expo IT fair, brought a really nice bag.



My chrismas present leh.

Brought my psp charger, cuz mine burnt out somehow. :O And a new psp bat. ALL SPONSORED BY MUM! HAHA THANKS MUMMY! :D

Haha, then i went k with my parent and aunt. Quite weird la. But my uncle wad damn funny. DAMN. HAHA. Sing out of tune until damn gao xiao la. Ate at T3. Parents and aunt and unc chatted till damn late.


Ponder:


I wonder, do i spend too much of my life in band? Like im like too crazy and into practising for band and stuff? Like though im sort of 'hardcore', but im still human. Are my efforts worth it?

I think, since im in band, and i like it, regardless the music or people, then i shall do my very best. Why make life so complicated? Its like, since you can be responsible, why succumb to sloth? Well, i totally agree band is a crazy cca with all sorts of nonsense, which is more or less a combi of drama, choir, ugs, dance?! Simply put it, BAND SUCKS. Well, just in a perspective. After all, its the bad stuff thats like super memorable. Really. No matter how much you dislike band, or what, if you do put in effort, or simply, just come every prac, you will definitely be left with memorable memories at the end of this 4 year trip. Rather, if u decide to abandon, you might still feel okay, but, you would be missing a part of secondary school life, and you do not notice.

Yeah, little do i have time to doubt my efforts. These may be 'excuses' to justify my 'hardcoreness' but then who cares? After all, life is either getting cheated by others or you cheating yourself. Sounds bad, but yes. So i wouldn't care anymore, just work harder, harder, and harder. GO!



-Rex, AHband percussionist.

Messy thoughts, 1st post.

Hello. Blog created on 27 November 2009, Fri , 1:05 am. Just take it as thurs.

Hmm. I guess i just created this blog out of impulse eh. I think alot. So, I always have many different feelings inside me. Sometimes i take it, other times i dont. I always ask myself weird questions, that linger on endlessly until another one comes, and i always ponder and forget. I hope to have a place, a place for me to input my feelings and sudden thoughts, so that they are not lost, so that i can recall, so that i can learn. I dont know if this blog may help or whatever, but yeah, ill see how it goes.

1st post!

Well, its band break now, and i've slacked the 2 previous days away, aimlessly. Seriously though, its slacking. Slacking causes you to lose all motivation and strength. It simply causes you to get more and more lethargic. Slacking is like taking drugs in a way. We think slacking is 'shiok', but after slacking, we just somewhat enjoyed time without work and then feel lost or tired. Slacking is tiring. For some reason or another, the more I slack, the more tired I become.

This is kinda caused by procrastination bah. Irritating. I've not been seriously practising, and i just practised just now, and im really irritated about myself for not being able to play my rudiments well. Really crappy. Keep getting stuck. I feel like screaming. I keep wanting to improve my fundamentals, but then i dont seem to be practising. Sucks. DD:

I went to parkway borders with kunmei ruth minli today to use our 100 dollars free card. Stuff so ex lar, barely can buy anything. We brought some on sale books and some really chio note book haha. And for ms farah too. Ate jacks place for lunch. Student meal, cheap and nice :D Wasn't able to rush back to school in time for my ss vid meeting, SORRY PEOPLE!

Super late alr, i gtg sleep. I better friggin bring myself to go practise or i should just go die. RAH! JUST DO IT!

-Rex, AHband Percussionist.